Writing to Get Right
I love the idea of daily blogging. I have been writing Morning Pages, a la Julia Cameron, every day save two or three for over seven years now. I started writing Morning Pages in October 2002, while living at the beach in Hawaii. We had just realized it was time to leave our island home and head back to California. It was a time of nonstop transition–things had already been shifting rapidly for the past few years and we were facing down yet another major change.
There was nothing external to hold onto so I grabbed a colored pen and retreated into my journal to find refuge from the storm and get my bearings. Morning by morning, one day after the next I sat down to write my three pages, longhand, before I did anything else. When all else failed I could still write. When I had no idea how to put one foot in front of the other anymore, I wrote.
Slowly but surely, and I’m talking years here, a new phase of life began to take form. I forged a new relationship with myself that was reliable. I grew to trust myself by coming back to the page and pouring it all out without censoring or judgment. Over time it became easier to see what was true for me and what I had taken in or taken on that really had nothing to do with me.
My new awareness came not from the writing, alone, though writing has served me well as witness, guide and mirror. The real teacher was Life. Letting go of what wasn’t me and whole-heartedly embracing those things that moved me, like running, dancing, singing, breathing, hooping, spending time with those I Love and living life as it comes, allowed Life to right me.
It isn’t easy to let go, and yet there are times when there is nothing else to do. In the end it is what we are and not what we have that matters. The irony is that the more I have let go, the richer and fuller my life has become. Try it and see for yourself.
Thanks for stopping by. I’m looking forward to the unfolding of this month-long adventure of daily blogging. I have discovered that there is an interesting phenomenon that happens with disciplined writing. New insight and awareness come to light when we reach for more words than we think we have. Stay tuned. And please come back soon.