Something Lost Something Found

photo-1425009294879-3f15dd0b4ed5

Lost my rhythm
Lost my rhymes
Lost my reasons
Lost my time

Lost my purpose
Lost the point
Lost the passion
Lost my mind

Lost my heart
My head
My hands
Lost the part that understands

Lost the things
That held me fast
But broke my heart
Never meant to last

Lost in time
Dreams drift and pass
Lost forever
I’m free at last

4/30/2014 – Jodi Lilly – All Rights Reserved


Either All In(spired) or Not At All

young-girl-1149701_1920

Seeing What Could Be  – Photographer Unknown

 

The ability to look beyond the obvious; to hold a reverence for life and its mysteries, even when we don’t understand what it all means; such is the path of the mystic. It’s not always an easy road, but for some, it’s the one that calls the heart.

At some point over the past months, my normally multi-colored world lost its vibrance. At first I thought it was just a temporary funk. Over time, it became clear that I had lost track of something vital to the way I have interacted with the world. And I couldn’t figure out exactly what it was that was missing or why. I lost perspective and had no clue how to get back to ‘normal’. Believe me, I tried.

For nearly twenty years, I have acted as a guide and way shower for others, navigating the often tricky trail of discovery and recovery of inner knowing via the inner being, the True Self. Much of my adult life has been dedicated to liberating myself from the tangled web of misunderstanding of who I am and what I am here to do. After all this time of feeling I knew what this was all about and how to walk my talk, no one was more surprised than I to find myself in such a desolate place. The interesting thing is, this was all an internal process. I was grieving something I couldn’t even name. I guess this is what it feels like to be in a cocoon…

As a Gemini and an astrologer I have often spoken about Gemini natives being the ‘Butterfly of the Zodiac’. The thing they don’t teach you in astrology books or classes is that those butterfly wings take time to develop. None of us start out knowing how to fly. Only after that caterpillar has completely released all it knew itself to be, does the transformation into butterfly begin.

One day, out of the blue, a warm, inviting breeze of inspiration began to blow. Emerging from the cocoon, not a little disoriented, I squint into the sunlight.

It isn’t just Gemini natives who undergo metamorphosis, especially these days. Eventually, we all go through it. This is particularly true in the current energetic climate that is challenging so many in ways they never dreamed they’d be tested. This is an organic process that has its own beginning and end. Astrology can be a helpful tool in understanding what we are going through. The more we can allow ourselves to be where we are in the moment, without struggling or judging, the more swiftly we can flow from there into a state of nonresistance that frees us from entanglements.

For me, inspiration is key. It is my touchstone. It’s how I know whether I am in a state of flow or resistance. Inspiration and resistance cannot coexist. If we are pushing against anything, we block everything that could otherwise show up in our lives in response to our desires. Letting go of the things that don’t really belong to us, releasing the outworn beliefs we’ve forgotten aren’t ours and giving up the ego identities that have kept our spirits boxed up and contained, will go a long way toward creating the breathing room we need in order to live the life our heart can embrace.

It really is darkest before the dawn. Sometimes fear wins for a while. It takes us down into the places within us that need to be seen and known so we can understand more of the truth of who we are. Morning does dawn, eventually, allowing us to see all in a new light, our energy renewed, inspired to create something we may never before have imagined.

When we are inspired, we see potential everywhere we look. The world calls us forth. We become a rainbow of living color that radiates out to touch all around us. Inspiration is not a switch we can consciously turn on or off. It is a function of the spirit. As we become more sensitive to what is happening in our inner world, navigating Life’s peaks and valleys gets easier and more rewarding. The most important thing is to keep coming back to the refuge of the heart. In the dark of night, it is there, pounding out the rhythm keeping us here, on sunny days, it is our truest guide to creating the life of our dreams.

May the mystical magic of your heart guide you ever onward to remembering just what a precious presence you are in this world.

Love,

Jodi

 

 


Diving Lessons

Golden Sunrise – Big Island Hawaii ~Photo by Jodi Lilly

Diving Lessons

Dive deep into the darkness
Beyond the dark
To the light
Where everything
You see
Is clear
And clean
And bright

Here you find your Self
Waiting
Unscathed and serene
Flawless
Unique
And brilliant
At peace with what has been

Ready to claim the life
You couldn’t imagine
Or dream
‘Til you moved through
The sacred darkness
To the place
Where awareness gleams

©2003 Jodi Lilly


Rainbow Goddess Moon and Entertaining What’s Possible

Rainbow Goddess Taurus Full Moon

Rainbow Goddess Taurus Full Moon (c) 2014 Jodi Lilly

I’m still thinking about last week’s full moon in the sign of Venus-ruled Taurus. When I uploaded my full moon pictures, I saw that this one had a rainbow around the top of the moon. After years of taking pictures of the moon, I have never before seen this! It was as if Venus, just a handful of degrees from the Sun in Scorpio, at the time, was projecting her creative flair to help the moon reflect even more brilliance in her fullness.

We have been through such an intense time of change, in the past few months, especially. So many people I know are undergoing major life-changes. Some of these people have chosen their changes, others definitely did not. Regardless of what prompted the change, having skillful means for navigating life’s transitions can make all the difference. I love the quote I’ve been hearing a lot lately, that says, “Life isn’t happening to you. It’s happening for you.” That simple change in perspective opens us to new possibilities. And while we may not have a choice about exactly what has happened, we have a choice about how we will act in response.

I have been through a lot of life-changing times; we all have. One of the things that helps me the most is the gift of hindsight. Being able to look back at situations that felt like ‘the end of the world’ at the time, turned out to be simply, ‘the end of the world as I knew it’. And each of those transitional times opened my heart and life in ways that allowed me to take actions that I would never have considered, back when I was comfortable and my life was predictable.

My Sun (ego/heart of the self) and Mercury (communication/intellect) are in the Mutable Air sign of Gemini. However, my Ascendant, Venus, Moon, Pluto, and Saturn are all in Fixed signs. So while my heart and mind are all for changing things, keeping them fresh, and entertaining all kinds of creative possibilities, (especially mentally!) my body, sensibilities, emotions and sense of responsibility are wired for predictability and stability, at all costs. So, while I can easily counsel others on the value of making wise choices about the crossroads before them, I know what it is to come up against a lot of internal resistance to taking action until the parts of myself that have concerns are addressed.

We all have obstacles and legitimate concerns about how to move forward when staying put is no longer an option. As we look back at other turning points, we see that we did make it through. Things did work out. Oftentimes, in ways we could never have foreseen and better than we could have imagined. One of the best tools I have discovered for navigating life’s ups and downs is to take a few moments when relaxed, to close my eyes and imagine the situation about which I am concerned and really feel the internal resistance I am experiencing around this topic. When the feelings are strong, I imagine myself melting all of that resistance and let my body release it, as well. Then I flip the situation and see it in a way that feels ideal, to me. Dwelling for a little while in that heightened state of awareness and allowing it to seep into my being, helps to open the creative floodgates for new possibilities to actually occur.

If the moon can have a rainbow, so can you. Keep looking up. You just never know what you might see.

Love,

Jodi


When a Breakthrough Feels Like a Breakdown ~BIG Shifts Happen

1544982_10152757151178421_7235499731807216549_n

The BIG Shifts interview I did this week with my longtime friend and colleague Adela Rubio is now available for replay on BIG Shifts. I love talking transformation and the many gifts wound around those times of intense change that we all go through. Adela and I have both been through many game changing experiences, and have been inspired to craft much of the work we do in the world around this topic. So, this was one juicy, high-energy conversation.

In the interview, you will hear about one of the major big shifts I went through that peaked during the period from mid-2001 to the end of 2002. It started when I moved to Hawaii, a dream come true, and ended when my guy lost his job and we ended up back in California. Those eighteen months were some of the highest and lowest periods of my life. There were some amazing gifts that came out of that time, most of them not about what I gained but what I no longer needed to carry. Although, at the time it often felt a lot like a breakdown, it was actually a huge breakthrough. Even twelve years later, I am discovering more about what that powerful time was all about, not just for myself, but for all of us.

I share a couple of tips for navigating your own big shifts with ease and grace. Check out the interview and let me know if you found it helpful.

If you’d like to join the BIG Shifts Program, this 30 Day Program started on October 8th, so is already under way, but community access means you will still be able to see everything that has happened. Membership is free of charge and you will receive lots of great tips on navigating your own BIG Shifts and hearing from others on the Transformation Team who have so much good stuff to share.

Shift easy and (as I tell those in my hoop classes) don’t forget to breathe,
Jodi

P.S. Adela mentioned that I teach hoop dance, several times in the interview but we never got around to talking about it. My other site is called Goddess Hoop Dance. My journey to the hoop was another of my BIG Shifts. I’ll write more about that another day.


BIG Shifts – 30 Days to Smoother Sailing

10632768_10152755667458421_2516885352813217209_n
My friend, Adela Rubio, just started a new 30 Day BIG Shifts program that promises to be a game changer for anyone who joins. I’m on the Transformation Team and so excited to share my interview, in which we talk about one of my personal BIG shifts that included what at first looked like a dream come true, moving to the beach in Hawaii and quickly became one of the most transformational times of my life. The interview will be broadcast tomorrow, and I’m excited to share it with all of you.

To learn more and sign up for the program go to the BIG Shifts.

May all of your BIG Shifts be graceful.


Breathing LOVE

The idea that one can breathe Love has intrigued me from the first time I heard about Breath of LOVE. I wasn’t sure what it meant then but now I know first hand that it is the real deal. Did you know that you can stop a cycle of obsessive thinking or worrying and essentially reset your brain with a two-minute breathing exercise? Or that you can collapse the emotional charge on a memory and free up that energy for use in other ways, even after decades, in about an hour?

People make fascinating discoveries about themselves with each new layer of memory we process using the Breath of LOVE technique. Breakthroughs happen quickly and before they know it the original memory has shifted so much that the intense emotional charge is gone. In its place they find peace of mind and neutrality about what happened in that memory, for the first time. They begin to see the situation with new, more compassionate eyes for themselves and the others who were part of that memory.

Here’s what one of my clients had to say about her session:

Have you ever found acceptance or given forgiveness only to experience the emotional pain rear up and rejuvenate a memory you’d rather never relive? Working with the Breath of LOVE method is like dropping a pebble in a reflection pool of your mind – the waves of energy dissipate the reflection – in this case the reflection of a painful, charged memory. Whether collecting the dust of time or suppressed, locked in a chest – carrying weighted memories takes up space and creates side effects in the life you desire. Jodi, Breath of LOVE Practitioner and intuitive guide, has been able to help me move through life-transitioning memories which have impacted my vision and walk through life. In my experience, it felt like shrugging off a lead shawl that I have carried with me so long, it feels like it has always been there.

My last session ended with the urge to smile as healing tears of release pooled over the rim of my eye lashes. I have witnessed no medication as powerful as one’s own innate healing breath. Jodi is a gifted spiritual healer with the intuitive power to assist others in connecting with their own natural-potential healer. Open your mind and breathe!

Kelly

Love, love, love… With Valentine’s Day coming soon, I think of February as the month of Love. Take a deep breath. Breathe in Love. Let Love fill your lungs and stir your soul. That’s something you can do right this minute. You can do it any time you need a little reminder about who you really are. Let love bathe your cells and remind you what really matters. Just breathe. No appointment necessary. Breathe Love. Love yourself. Love your life.


Sacred G and The Way of the Heart

I wrote the first passage in October 2008 on a call with a group of women writers with whom I have written, off and on, for many years.

My heart has taken command of my life, of late. After years of being ignored and pushed aside like a nagging, insistent child by a mother who is too busy to listen to one more word, my heart is having her say.

“Stop!” she said. “If you don’t, I will. I’m hurting and sad and angry. Can you feel me now?”

Yes, I feel you. I get the message. It is time to come clean. It is time to let go of all the trappings and mindless, heartless distractions and come home. It is time to sit quietly with you and give you the reins. We both know I’ve always wanted to follow you.

Fear has had his reign; his day in the sun. Now is the time for the heart to shine.

At the time I wrote that, my heart was literally aching and I didn’t know why. I felt my life contracting around me and nothing I did seemed to make any difference. The tide was out, a major cycle in my life was completing and I had no clue how to make it different than it was. Something in me knew though, that my desire to feel more vital and alive would somehow prevail and I would get to the other side. I was aware that a lot of the things I had been doing were not working for me anymore. I also knew that I was the only one who could change it. And since I didn’t know how to move forward I did the only thing I knew to do; I start letting go of the situations and things and ideas that I knew weren’t right for me anymore. I purged and cleaned and purged some more.

Fast forward to March 2009. Someone I know through an online group sent me a link to a site about Sacred Geometry called WISH FOR LOVE. (The WISH FOR LOVE–LOVE is an acronym for Laws Of Vibrational Energy–website has been replaced by the new CORY HERTER website.) I started watching videos of webinars and reading what I could find on the site that explained what it was about. I kept thinking, REALLY? Sacred Geometry can help change a person’s life? REALLY? I joined the WISH FOR LOVE online community and started meeting and reading about the experiences of others who had been using the Sacred G technology. I kept feeling drawn to learn more and experience the effects of using Sacred G for myself.

I started with a couple of cases of Sacred G posters and saw changes in my sleep and dreams immediately. Beyond that, I started to have insights about how to solve problems, my intuition was sharper and answers came more quickly. Before long, I had some undeniable experiences of my own. And my heart stopped aching. And I started to make remarkable discoveries about myself–what was true for me and who I am beyond all the stuff I have or haven’t done or been or had.

It has been almost eleven months since I was introduced to Sacred G and Cory Herter, the brilliant creator of Sacred G Technology. So much has happened in that time it feels like it’s been eleven lifetimes. In a good way. I’m happy to say that my heart does have her say today. I feel more vibrant and alive and truly myself than ever before. I have a phenomenal network of friends, creative projects and work I enjoy, my relationships with those I am closest to have improved and I am finally at home in my own body.

As I mentioned in a previous post, at the beginning of last year the message from my Inner Guidance was that 2009 would be The Year of Miracles. I can say without a doubt that it was indeed a miraculous year. And in 2010 it keeps getting better.

What is your heart telling you?


A Breath of Fresh Air


There is nothing like a few good deep breaths to help a person slow down and relax. I took my first ever CPR Certification class over the weekend and one of the things they recommend doing is having the injured person breathe in through the nose and out through the mouth to help them relax.

I have long been a fan of breathing. I learned many years ago that breathing consciously and deliberately helps in letting go of tension, breaking habits and focusing, to say nothing of the difference it makes in one’s ability to perform physical tasks and exercise.

It was fairly recently, though, that I really began to understand the transformative quality of the breath that enables one to release even the toxic emotions and memories that impact us so deeply they change our sense of who we are and what is possible for us in this life.

Breath of LOVE (acronym for Laws Of Vibrational Energy) is a new technique taught by Cory Herter that makes it possible to pretty much rewrite one’s own history or at least change, in the present, our experience of the past. Breath of LOVE allows a person to release the emotional charge of traumatic or disturbing memories so the experience can be integrated and the person is free of the weight of that experience and the behavior patterns that were developed as a result.

I have been asked by several people about the wisdom of letting go of these old, painful memories, after all, they say, don’t we need to remember those things to make sure we don’t forget what we learned from them? The answer is no, no, no. Once a memory has been processed and integrated the experience becomes part of who you are rather than something that happened to you. As a result, you have a piece of wisdom networked into your being that was previously sitting, unresolved in the subconscious. Once we face those things that happened and breathe through the layers of the experience we begin to make connections we were not aware of before. Insights surface about ourselves and others in the experience and we begin to see how other experiences are related. When the memory has been fully processed we come to a new awareness about ourselves and our life.

The breath is a transformational power tool. Most of us just haven’t understood how to use it for our transformational healing. Breath of LOVE makes it possible to literally ‘change your mind’ and lighten up in about an hour.


Love Yourself

I listened to a fascinating lecture on Human Design today by it’s founder and messenger, Ra Uru Hu. The major themes and lessons of Human Design is that each of us is unique. This is something I come back to over and over again in my work with clients, doing astrology readings. I show people how they are unique and help them to understand their own genius that only comes through when they embrace their individuality completely. “Love yourself.” Ra says it often. And it bears repeating.

How many of us were taught to love who we are? How many of us were raised by people who were secure enough in themselves and as parents to really encourage us to not only be who we are but to love our self?

Most of the people who come to see me for a session are dealing with some kind of conflict between who it is they think they should be or how they ought to behave and the part of them that just wants to break free of all of those constraints and LIVE, full out as who they are.

I’m not sure how it happened that people are so afraid of love but I see it all the time. Love is the essence of who we are. Fear has replaced love in the minds of so many as being more intelligent and even noble, somehow. Does this seem like a crazy notion to anyone else? Fear is simply the resistance to love. It is a choking off of the life force that creates all kinds of trouble and even disease, for us. Love is your nature. You really can’t not be love, but you do have the free will to make your life miserable by denying it.

Love yourself. It sounds so simple. For most of us, it takes some getting used to and practice. Is it really okay to embrace one’s quirkiness and failings and the crazy things that disturb and delight us? Is it really okay that we don’t care about some of the things that are so important to others? Are we really allowed to forget about the stuff someone else thought we should do and focus on the stuff we prefer?

The question is, if you don’t live your life, who will? If you don’t do what is in your heart to do, who will do it? We each have something of value to offer. All transformation begins from within. If it doesn’t happen within you first, the external changes will be fleeting or ineffective or both.

Love yourself. Start today. It is the most amazing life-changing thing you can do. Once you learn to love you there is a new ease that naturally happens in relationships with others, too.

Love yourself. You were born lovable. When you love yourself, you become Love-able. Loving you is probably the most important, enlightening, life-transforming thing you’ll ever do. The whole world looks different through the eyes of love.