Life just seems to happen, sometimes. One thing intersects with the next, year after year, cycle upon cycle. It’s hard to keep track of it all. Our stories mount up in our memories, still active, still holding the energy of what happened, whether we were able to handle it gracefully or not. The ones that got the better of us continue to hold that same charged energy until we can sit with them and accept what happened. Those stories are the ones that shape our character, or could, if we let them.
I am sitting with a story right now. It’s something that happened between myself and some dear friends, decades ago. There were a lot of different story lines at play at the time. Each of us going through our own transformative life experiences. Each of us working through what was in front of us to do. Each of us wanting to reach dry land, where we knew where all the pieces went and we could breathe a little easier, once again. Somewhere in the middle of our shared story we lost our connection to one another. To this day, I don’t understand exactly what happened. What I do know is that the end of that shared journey opened the door to a whole other way of living and being that I would never have experienced, had those earlier friendships survived.
As challenging as it can be on a personality level to let go of loss, disappointment and unanswered prayers, being able to see how one ending facilitated a new level of depth and understanding helps us trust that there is indeed order in the universe. Life is on our side, even when it doesn’t feel like it at the time. The bigger picture, that only hind site can offer, tells a truer story than we can possibly see when we are in the middle of yet another grand finale.
These days, especially, we are seeing a lot of old stories ending. Journeys we thought would take us somewhere altogether different brought us to where we are now. The energetic climate of Life has changed and as it has, the circumstances that made certain things possible and promising no longer exist. We look around us and see that it is time for an unleveling of our lives. We have a huge opportunity to do things in a new way, to right our lives and start fresh. We just have to be willing to let go of what was.
I saw those old friends at a reunion several months ago. It was fascinating to feel the connections between us still very much alive. Things have changed and Life has taken us all in different directions but the Love that bound us once lives on, albeit in a different form. We are all on to new stories now. Letting go of how it ‘should have been’ allows us to open to what is available in this moment and write the stories we’d love to live now.
I trade in the tango of intangibles
Energy, vibration, intention and Love
Those things that no one can put a price on
The stuff that doesn’t count
For those who keep score
Mine is the invisible realm
That connects people
And offers them hope
Of healing, of joy
And another way of living
Mine is the slippery slope
Of inconvenient feelings
The unfortunate ones no one really wants
The ones that take us deep into who we are
When we are raw
Stripped of the niceties
Of a society uncomfortable
With our expressions sadness, grief
Pain or sorrow
Even our giddiness and glee
I trade in matters of the soul, you see
The part of us that speaks
In the dead of night
That whispers the dreaded truth
That the stuff we bought into
All those bright ideas
That allowed us to fit in
And find our place
Are never going to take us where we want to go
They lead us away from who we are
And the whole point of being here
Mine is the realm of the psyche
The spirit, the unconscious becoming known
The passage we are challenged to navigate
To finally hearing the call
Of the immeasurable Love we are
The Love that reminds us of what matters
The Love that, in the end
Is the only thing that counts
2014 – Jodi Lilly
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As a young adult everything in my outer world changed and yet I felt alone. They sky has been a safe haven for me for as long as I can remember. Even today, as savvy and sophisticated as I like to think I am, I retreat to the sky with that same hope and prayer in my heart. The sky reminds me of something I’ve yet to put my fingers on.
As a practicing astrologer you’d think I’d have figured it all out by now. Instead, I engage in the mystery and magic of the stars twinkling overhead that always call to my heart. There is something sacred in the silence of the sky. Something my spirit has always understood.
See for yourself, next time you find yourself sleepless in the middle of the night. As you behold the sky’s vast and sparkling darkness, feel into the Grace, wonder and wisdom it holds for you. Sky gazing helps us shift out of the details and into the miracle of being alive, here and now, on planet earth.
*This was the very first posting (with a couple of updates) to this blog which was launched on August 27, 2006.
**In honor of this cycle of Mercury’s Retrograde phase, I will be reposting some of the original writings from this blog. This is in part to help me consciously remember, review and re-collect some of earlier steps of this journey and share some of that inspiration with all of you.
Thoughts on Love…
The truth written in the stars
Lives within the heart.
As above, so below.
As within, without.
We have lived so long beside ourselves
Hoping someday to go home.
It seems the time is here and now.
It’s safe to come back home.
Home is not another place
It isn’t out there somewhere.
Home is a tucked inside the heart
Where all is safe and warm.
It isn’t what you thought it was,
It isn’t a mystery.
It is simply letting go of all
You once thought it might be.
Letting go and giving up
The tricks and traps and rules.
At home you are free
To do exactly as you choose.
It was never about being good enough
Or right or careful or wise.
Home holds its doors out wide
Come on in, you decide.
Home is the place you can always go,
You’re always welcome, always known.
At home there’s no need to be special or good,
Who you are is understood.
You can catch your breath and take a break
And rinse off the debris of the day.
You can kick off your shoes, take off your tie
And sit before the fire with a good glass of wine.
At home you are seen and known and heard
There’s nothing you need to do.
You can hear your heart and find your rhythm
And live the way you choose.
At home you are free of the trappings;
The shoulds, hows and wherefores all cease.
You can let go of all the believing
And simply let yourself BE.
Be yourself. Live your life. Love yourself. Love your life.
Time, energy, attention and money. These are the precious personal resources of our lives. Too often, I find mine have disappeared without me even noticing until they are gone.
I feel that the process of getting to know and accept oneself wholeheartedly is essential to understanding one’s values and value as an individual. We have all been exposed to the conditioning that says, “No one will ever love you if you are honest” and “It is selfish/wrong to think highly of yourself” and “Sensitivity is a weakness” and the unspoken but pervasive idea “Love is something that you have to earn”. Only by being honest with yourself is it possible to know what is true of you.
Here is what I have learned. The art of living well is based in having cultivated a loving relationship with oneself. This means learning to trust your heart and body and questioning the knee-jerk judgments of your mind and other people. It means coming out of auto-pilot-living and noticing the things that spark your energy and enthusiasm, lift your spirits, feel expansive and draw you forward. It means knowing what matters to you and investing your personal resources in ways that support your life and your values.
It all comes down to this: Roses don’t last forever. Smell them while they bloom. Life is precious. Spend it wisely. Love yourself. Love your life.
I had blogging on my mind yesterday, off and on all day. I had blogged nine straight days. I was proud of my efforts and knew that being almost a third of the way there, I could accomplish my NaBloPoMo goal of a blog post a day for thirty days running.
The thing is, though, I wasn’t feeling particularly taken with any of the ideas that came to mind. I considered posting something just for the sake of fulfilling my intention to do so. That didn’t feel very good to me, though. I blog to share ideas, images and information that feel inspiring. If my heart isn’t in it, it is just a mechanical act.
So, No More National Blog Post Month for me unless the spirit moves me that many days in a row. We’ll see. My days of doing something just because I said I would in a moment of inspiration are long gone. When I stretch beyond that with which I am aligned it never turns out as I had hoped it would, regardless of my good intentions.
Living true to who we are means allowing for the fresh insights and deeper realizations that emerge as we are making our way down a particular path. Things are seldom what we think they are as we begin them and sometimes everything we need to fulfill our reason for choosing that direction happens quickly. Other times the path continues to draw us forward and our horizons expand in wonderful ways as a result of that journey. Only in honoring that which is true for us in the moment do we stay in the flow of our own river of life. Loving yourself means trusting what you feel and honoring it with your actions. No one else needs to understand or approve. Only you know what is right for you.
My friend, Nicole, and I hike once or twice a week in the forest pictured above and the surrounding hills. We share a passion for being out in nature, for getting exercise in a natural and uplifting way; we are willing to push ourselves a little and aren’t afraid to slow down or stop if that’s what we need to do. Some of the trails are super steep. Others, like this one, are gentle and winding. Sometimes we follow the trail to the end. Other times we turn around and find a way that feels better.
Go boldly in the directions that call to you, live true and love you.
I listened to a fascinating lecture on Human Design today by it’s founder and messenger, Ra Uru Hu. The major themes and lessons of Human Design is that each of us is unique. This is something I come back to over and over again in my work with clients, doing astrology readings. I show people how they are unique and help them to understand their own genius that only comes through when they embrace their individuality completely. “Love yourself.” Ra says it often. And it bears repeating.
How many of us were taught to love who we are? How many of us were raised by people who were secure enough in themselves and as parents to really encourage us to not only be who we are but to love our self?
Most of the people who come to see me for a session are dealing with some kind of conflict between who it is they think they should be or how they ought to behave and the part of them that just wants to break free of all of those constraints and LIVE, full out as who they are.
I’m not sure how it happened that people are so afraid of love but I see it all the time. Love is the essence of who we are. Fear has replaced love in the minds of so many as being more intelligent and even noble, somehow. Does this seem like a crazy notion to anyone else? Fear is simply the resistance to love. It is a choking off of the life force that creates all kinds of trouble and even disease, for us. Love is your nature. You really can’t not be love, but you do have the free will to make your life miserable by denying it.
Love yourself. It sounds so simple. For most of us, it takes some getting used to and practice. Is it really okay to embrace one’s quirkiness and failings and the crazy things that disturb and delight us? Is it really okay that we don’t care about some of the things that are so important to others? Are we really allowed to forget about the stuff someone else thought we should do and focus on the stuff we prefer?
The question is, if you don’t live your life, who will? If you don’t do what is in your heart to do, who will do it? We each have something of value to offer. All transformation begins from within. If it doesn’t happen within you first, the external changes will be fleeting or ineffective or both.
Love yourself. Start today. It is the most amazing life-changing thing you can do. Once you learn to love you there is a new ease that naturally happens in relationships with others, too.
Love yourself. You were born lovable. When you love yourself, you become Love-able. Loving you is probably the most important, enlightening, life-transforming thing you’ll ever do. The whole world looks different through the eyes of love.
In January, I wrote a newsletter that included an article called 2009 ~The Year of Miracles, that I posted to one of my other blogs. You can find it here: The Year of Miracles
As the year has progressed, the miracles keep on coming. Some are subtle, some are positively life-altering. Now, seven months into the year, I wonder whether I would have taken notice of some of these things, had I not been looking for something extraordinary to happen.
Energy follows attention. That which we focus on expands. That which we acknowledge and accept at face-value can then show us aspects and potentials that we would never had noticed had we continued to disregard it because it did not come to us in the form we were expecting or in the time-frame we had in mind.
My year has been filled with miracles, many of which even bore the name Miracle or had Miracles attached to it in some way. My guy just happened to hear that tickets would be going on sale in just minutes for the Smokey Robinson concert. He managed to snag us fifth row, center seats. And though the Miracles did not play with Smokey, the show itself was a miracle. I’ve been a fan since I was a kid and the man’s voice is still amazing.
Marianne Williamson wrote a wonderful book called The Age of Miracles. It is about not only coming to terms with midlife, but coming to realize the many blessings of experience and wisdom and cause for celebration that we, so often, fail to recognize. A new level of the miraculous became apparent after reading her book.
I was introduced to Cory Herter, Sacred G and CoryHerter.com, (originally called WISH FOR LOVE) in March of this year. Cory’s work is extraordinarily miraculous. So many people, including me, are having amazing experiences just days, weeks and months after starting to use Sacred G. Dreams become vivid, sleep improves, bodies rejuvenate, emotions stored in unprocessed memories are cleared to free up life force and many who have been on the technology for a few months are seeing their entire life shift to an unprecedented level of well-being. There are lots of free videos of Cory teaching webinars full of amazing and enlightening information about how the body works and how the LOVE Technology supports the body, as well a free jpg. file of the LOVE Technology that you can download and reprint to try for yourself just for registering for the mailing list. Please tell them you heard about Sacred G on Jodi’s blog.
There are countless other miracles I could recount here, but for now, I’ll leave it at this.
Miracles are everywhere when we look for them. Seek and ye shall find. What kind of miracles are you seeing, these days? I’d love to hear your stories.